Not to “dis” Eckhart Tolle, or to pretend to know something that he doesn’t, but I am getting slightly annoyed hearing people talk all of the time about, “Being in the Now.” Where else would we be anyway? I get the point: We spend much of our “now” mulling over the past or worrying about. or anticipating the future, so it is supposed to be a radical leap to actually experience the present. But I think we end up using- “I am not in the now,” to worry about the present too. In effect, we are not only anticipating future unwanted outcomes, we are also quite sure that our present is somehow lacking because while we are in it, we are sure that we are not.
I think there are more useful distinctions: two of them I have been practicing with lately are Being and experiencing. Today, I am home with my dogs. Dogs are all “Being.” They don’t really have a doing bone (pardon the pun) in their body- maybe they should be called Canine Beings, since humans don’t seem to do such a great job, in general, of honoring the title of Being. When I am away from my dogs, I want to be with them, when I am with them, at home, I wonder what I should be doing. Today I thought, “there is nothing more important than my being.” Easier said than done. Am I earning my ‘keep’ if I am not doing something? Isn’t there something I SHOULD be doing?
I am strongly drawn to practices that have as their outcome an experience of being and of experiencing itself. Yoga, for example- and not just any yoga, but types of yoga that include breath work, meditation and kinesthetic “checking-in.” My favorite yoga: Babaji Kriya yoga has a kriya phase after each asana, where you lay in a semi Savasana pose, consciously experiencing the sensations inside of your body. On the DVD I found on Amazon, the yoga leader says that the kriya phase allows the mind/body shift that is the purpose of each asana, to occur. It feels very yin, feminine and healing. It is a Being practice and I love it.
Yoga itself is a Being practice, but Westerners can turn anything into a competition (even with ourselves) and yoga is no exception. We have hot yoga, power yoga, pilates yoga. I guess 3000 years of a Science from the most Spiritually enlightened people on the planet might have gotten it wrong and the benefit of adding a good dose of Type A behavior in the midst of what is meant to be a way to get the body ready to handle Divinity cannot be overlooked. If you aren’t sweating, you might find God, but will you have suffered enough to deserve the meeting? Or, if you are interested in such things, will you want to meet God at all? After all, once that moment comes, every other acquisition has to pale- and that’s no fun.
Being an Experiencer. A colleague of mine says about the work that we do that it is about being an Experiencer. The moment I heard it, I understood that aspect of my work in a new way. Humans are not only challenged at Being, we also, passed maybe toddler age, have traded experiencing for conceptualizing. Now I sound dangerously like Eckhart Tolle, but I must say that I get that distinction for myself, though I often have trouble translating it. In the training I sometimes ask people to think about their favorite type of food and a restaurant where they can depend on that food being delicious. I ask them to imagine that food so that their mouth is watering with the anticipation of having it. For me, it used to be steak, medium rare, with butter on top, even better. Now I am a vegan and am more likely to crave kale salad with lemon and sesame seeds, but that is a story for another time. Anyway, I ask them to imagine walking up to the restaurant, seeing the item on a menu behind glass and instead of going in to have the item, they lick the glass that is covering the menu. As they say in Eastern philosophy, “The finger pointing to the moon is not the moon,” so the metaphor only goes so far. Still, if you imagine as I have invited you to, there is an experience, is there not, of what a concept is?
To experience consciously, must be a human exclusive. Other animals experience, but do they know they are experiencing? Is there a distinction between Being and experiencing? If I am fully experiencing something, do I need anything else? Is there an anything else to need in that moment or is a need a lapse in fully experiencing what I have now, or how I am being, or what is going on in my body, mind, etc.?
In this moment I am feeling into my body. There are sensations that I can label or let be. There are sounds coming from the kitchen where my dog is drinking water. The vibration, the music (even that a label) comes and goes. Air passes my nose, slightly cold and my chest expands. I let myself be breathed because it doesn’t need my help and I wonder if nothing really does. If I can get out of the way, the universe will do what it knows to do and I can simply listen. I can allow it to move me when it wants to and surrender when it pauses to listen for what wants to be. I can lay down between asanas and let my mind/body connections reshape themselves into new circuitry for finding God. And if, in this lifetime, I don’t find God, I can let that be too.